4:44 p.m. - 2004-03-06
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listening to: maroon five - tangled
wearing: white tee and some comfy khakis
I need to keep up to date on this thing, man. I'm thinking about moving. Sites I mean, not homes or anything. Truth be told, I have like 3 or 4 other accounts on d-land that I've signed up for with the intent to start new diaries, and I just never have. I started one of them, and then the guy I was dating at the time happened to find it and read some of it..... it caused some nice little issues since I was under the impression that no one I knew was going to find it. I just wrote whatever the hell I wanted on there.
Whoops. Watch that mouth.
Anyway. I'm supposed to be doing some studying right now. That's always how it goes of course, when I'm updating. I've got so much work to do. I have a lab report due Monday, a separations exam, two *hellish* reactor reports, and some statics due on Tuesday, and more statics and some separations homework due Thursday. Fun. Not to mention, I **need** to start kicking it in the butt on my choreography. My ballet dance is going really well, and my girls seem to love it. But I need to make some changes to the jazz dance I'm teaching. It's a *leetle* too hard for my girls, and they don't like that. But I want it to be cute!!! I don't know how to do easy cute dances. Blah.
I went to confession today. No real reason, I just felt like going. I was driving by at about quarter to 4, and I knew that's when they are heard, so I stopped in. I like Fr Fred. He's funny, but I really feel like he does a good job of understanding students... maybe because it seems like it hasn't been that long since he was a student.. I don't know. It's sort of soothing... no, not soothing.. comforting maybe. I just feel like everything is whirling around me, and I'm not sure how to stop it or figure out which way I'm going... and it's like a little calm in the storm. Or at least I want it to be that way.
I didn't give anything up for lent this year. I couldn't think of anything that didn't seem trivial. I used to give up soda, or sweets, or tv.... But I just feel like those things aren't enough.. like it's not enough of a sacrifice. It doesn't seem like there is a big enough sacrifice for it to make a difference. It's like resolutions too. I made a resolution last year to not make anymore resolutions anymore... ever. They're silly, and all they do is make you feel bad when the next new years rolls around, and you haven't followed through with a single one. Yep. That's how it goes now for me. I've turned into a rather apathetic person.
Today at my brother's wrestling meet, I saw a boy wrestling who only had one leg. I guess he was born that way, but it was amazing. I've never seen anything like it. he. was. awesome. He was so fast, and he pinned his guy. Crazy, the things you can do when you don't know how to be any different....
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